UNFINISHED
By Jack Danyá
Kemplin |
Sometimes one's life comes to a sudden halt, & sometimes
that happens too fast. When your life ends that is
supposed to be it, your soul is supposed to be at rest.
But sometimes there are things left UNFINISHED!!!
It first hits one like a flash of light, one moment you
are happy enjoying yourself & then the next everything
is all wrong. It is all shattered to me, still waves &
flashes, moving images & wisping sounds ring through my
head. Hot, red hot, the sweet smelling sweat as it runs
down her supple flesh, her golden hair grain like &
course as it brushes up against me. She smiled as we
danced...
Smack! I am knocked down to the ground, they are on top
of me, thrusting, penetrating, tearing, the laughs & the
screams, their lipstick, & their wigs, their faces
deathly skulls, “O Come on you know you love us, come on
give daddy a little kiss boy!” “O I am so sorry did you
really think that she loved you? Ha! How could anyone
love someone like you? You know what? I think I know
what it is. You like to masturbate too much! O come on
admit it! I do too, but not nearly to the extent that
you do! Ha!.” Dejáne!
Yes I remember, yes! No, No I do not... It is all so
blurred & fuzzy, I can only see parts of it at a time,
unable to distinguish which is fact from fantasy
anymore, & by the time I see the rest it is dissociated
from the former thus I am always left with more
questions then answers. “But that will end tonight!”
As I softly load the gun I sing “A twiddly a dee, a
twiddly a doe, count them, count them says The Crow!” I
shakingly put the first bullet into the chamber
“Retribution, Revenge, Redemption the three, but which
one is me? Ask the black bird, ask him, ask him what
does he see?” The fourth slides in, “A casket, a coffin
bodies filled decaying, but who did it, who will do it?
Is it me?” The last forced in with all my anger “Six of
them, they are, they will be, they was, they were. But
who sent them? O yeah it was HER!” |